Fallin Inlove with my Best Bud

Falling for a friend is one of the most usual love story of every mankind and even the most complicated one 'coz being with your friend is having the best partner in life but sometimes, friends are just meant to be friends :c did I ever fall for a friend?oh my!A couple of times already,most of the time..unrequited...or i dont wanna lose the friendship! I just love them damn too much that I hate to lose them. There comes a point that I'd shun away from that person for me to move on completely, to forget the feeling but definitely NOT forgetting the person. sometimes we need to stay away for the things/persons/places that keep hurting us so when we're finally healed, we can say "Im OK" with a genuine smile!
MY LAST HEARTBREAK....was falling inlove with a friend. i was so happy,so inlove that i was blinded of the things that i should be aware of at the very beginning. My only concern for that moment is that my affection for him was somehow reciprocated. I felt like a princess that have found his prince. I was happy then..till Ive found out that there was another woman. I was dumbfounded and pain stricken my whole being. I had cry my eyes out that night..till this day....

Patience is the best remedy for every trouble...

    Another day, another journey, another memories to make, another adventure, another people to meet. Facing the unknown, looking forward for a better future....
    I'm so jobless<and loveless daw..hahahaha> and I dont know where to go. For a year, nasanay akong always on the go,lageng busy <kuno>. My job is something that I always look forward to every waking hour of my life.,twas something that keeps me going,making me forget all my problems for awhile. But now that its gone<since Ive resigned>---no choice,di job hunting ulit!!First Destination---GENSAN.

    After a decade,my best friend Sheila(whom Ive known since nursery)were reunited. Twas fun seeing her again after a long time. We've spend so much time talking, catching up for the lost times that we haven't seen each other. And I was about to leave Gensan, when something caught my attention. I saw a large sign on a bulletin board that says, "URGENT HIRING"..to make the story short, I followed the instructions written and hoping that it'll be the job of my life. Im very much desperate to have a job as soon as possible. Kahit naman siguro si Juan dela Cruz na naghahanap ng trabaho ay maeengganyo...To my dismay,it wasnt the job I've expected. Tama nga sila maraming namamatay sa maling akala! I went home,tired thirsty and frustrated with my bestfriends,Sheila & Eden(who was very much worried of me,kasi kala nya naligaw na aq..naka 21 miscalls & 7 txtmsgs lng nman :p ) That moment parang gusto kong isiping ang malas ko naman, pati ba naman dito sa Gensan abot pa rin :c. I was sitting on the floor of Edens boarding house and thinking,whats next? Ano pang susunod na mangyayari sa susunod kong paglalakbay?suswertehin o mamalasin ba ulit ako? Pero sa pangyayaring yun,mayron akong natutunan. :)
      May mamang nagsabi,"you can always run but you can never hide"..tama nga naman sya..sapol ako dun ah!erset lng..tsk! May tinatakbuhan nga ba talaga ako? ewan q,siguro?parang...hahaha hindi ko na alam...wedeng tama sya,wede ring hindi. Alam ko kahit san ako magpunta,san man ako mapadpad, hinding-hindi ko rin matatakasan ang lahat ng tao/bagay na gusto kong mawala sa isip ko,kasi kahit san mang lupalop ng mundo ako dalhin ng Dalawang paa at Bag ko..kasama ko pa rin ang mga yun sa lahat ng oras ng buhay ko. Someone told me,napaka-hyper ko daw,di ako marunong maghintay,nagmamadali sa mga bagay-bagay..na sa pagmamadali nagiging reckless. I was very much emotional that time when he was saying that,pero napaisip ako. Uo,siguro..tama xa! Ganun talaga ako eh,masyado akong nagmamadali sa mga bagay-bagay,na kapag may naumpisahan akong project dapat matapos ko agad para wala na akong puproblemahin pa...na kapag may problema ako,gagawa ako ng paraan para masolve yun,na sa kagustuhan kong maayos minsan mas nagugulo ko pa...pagsisihan ko man,alam ko huli na...
      There was a time during my college years,duty ko sa hospital ng may nabasag akong jar at kelangan kong palitan yun as soon as possible!Malayo na ang inabot ko,saan-saan na rin ako nakapunta,suot-suot ko pa ang puti kong uniporme..para akong multong gala...I was frustrated and tired and I almost gave up. Then a friend came and helped me, she had found the jar similar to the one ive been broken. Narealize ko nun na, i have to be patient coz at the end of the day..makikita ko rin ang hinahanap ko..na kailangan kong maghintay at magtiis.maybe God is telling me to be patient, to take things slowly, that I should sit back and relax even for just a minute. Kasi minsan sa  sobrang pagmamadali kadalasan nadadapa tayo.
       My trip in Gensan,wasn't that bad after all. It makes me realize some mistakes I had in the past. Its something I will keep not only in my mind but also in my heart. After  all ,patience is always a virtue. :)
I trust in You,O Lord. I say,"You are my God,my time are in Your hands" Psalms 31:14-15 God has a will for us,wether we follow it or not. When we get ahead of God and try to force things the consequences are often tragic. Ive learned that I should wait for God and shut up! Sometimes, I ask myself, whats happening in my life right now? I don't seem to understand it anymore,but a verse in the bible says, "You dont know what I am doing but later you will understand" John 13:7. Someday I will...coz I believe that things happen for a reason,that there's a purpose behind every story of our lives..:)