"may mga bagay na binabalewala at kinakalimutan ng utak ngunit pinapaalala ng puso"

I don't know why I cried last night when I've found out that my friend is leaving. I know that it his dream to be there in Italy, preparing himself for priesthood. I have no problem with that since his dream,is also my dream. I want him to be happy whatever path he take. I was just sad that he will be sooo FAR AWAY.. Actually kahit dito naman sya sa pinas parehas lang kasi di naman kami nagkikita.That's why I don't know what this tears are for... :c,for the past 7 years,we've seen each other once. Thanks to technology we've created a wonderful friendship! I wanted to talk to him last night,wanted to hear his voice for the last time his here in phil. ...and then suddenly my heart beats so fast,I felt weird! It's the first time I felt this way,calling someone with a loud beating of my heart.But nah,I haven't heard his voice last night,maybe he was busy packing up his things. I shouldn't feel the way I do,its not right. Our friendship is one of the most important thing in my life right now. I don't wanna wake up one day knowing we're not friends anymore...whoaah that would be sad. It pays to be honest but sometimes there are things we have to lie about especially when it comes to the matter of the heart. Love makes every thing in this world a whole lot complicated. There are times I'm tempted to tell him how I feel, but everytime I wanted to, I think about our friendship...

 This morning I got a call from him, that made my day. Before I answered the phone there goes the heartbeat again...tachycardia(lubbdubb,lubbdubb) He is leaving tonight & maybe next year he will be ordained. hows that? But in my heart of hearts,its an unattainable love...my blue rose :)

In his journey, in the new chapter of his life...my prayers will always be with him. My faith is telling me we're going to meet again...ONE DAY! ;)

HAVE YOU SEEN IT?

There goes my heart,its leaving me

Shall I hold it?or set it free?

Have you seen through my heart, the feelings I have for you?

Have you seen through my heart,the sadness felt coz you're about to go...

Will I tell you or will I tell you not?

I'll close my eyes and dream of you

And in my dreams I'll be wishing you want me too...

I have seen through your heart that I am just a friend

I have seen through your heart that you have made a vow

and keeping it till the end...

Before you leave and walk away

Have you seen through my heart that I really wanted you to stay?

Before you go and fly away

Have you seen through my heart

That I  love you in my own way...